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2011 felt like a lucid dream.

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Looking at the past

I was going back to read my old tumblr posts today. I cried a lot going through it… Because my whole tumblr is like a memoir of my journey of heartbreak till now. The things I wrote during those past months, I could feel the pain and hurt I felt inside my chest at that time all over again. Made me realize I will never get myself back to that point ever again. Just reminiscing the past of how...

Dec 31st

eimmiklay: After all this time, he still makes me feel giddy and still gives me butterflies. :)

Dec 31st

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I hate it when I have absolutely nothing to do late at night.

Dec 31st

I think what hurts the most is when I start miss being back in Los Angeles and just being there with him. Because when you miss the person you want to see most really fucking hurts inside. Makes me cry all fucking day and throughout the whole night.

Dec 31st

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The things I'm going to miss

Your smile The way you laugh The stupid things we do together The way you smell When you hold my hand when we are in the car Kissing you at the stop lights Stealing your body warmth when it gets cold as hell Going out to eat Cuddling Kissing all the time You nagging to give you a massage LOL Watching tv together Sleeping over When you act all cute when you say no HAHA When we start...

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If you don’t want to lose me as much I don’t want to lose you. Show me the effort that you don’t. Because if I don’t see it then I’m going to start drifting away, forever.

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I realized a lot today

I’m happy where I am at with you right now. Because I don’t want to lose you at all. Losing you will be the greatest loss in my life then anything else. You make me the happiest and saddest person in the world. When I’m the happiest, it feels like nothing can fucking bring me down. But when you make me the saddest, it feels like my world is crumbling apart. I realized how much I...

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It always feels like he’s only 15 mins away from me. There are days when I felt like he was outside my door, but I keep forgetting he’s so far away. I always look out the window, and he is never there. Breaks my heart every time.

Dec 31st

All I want is for him to, Love me Miss me Love me Think about me Love me Love me Love me

Dec 31st

My mom is so cute. She bought a fleece pajama that has grey zebra prints all over it. Everytime she wears it to bed I call her animal crackers and she gets so fucking butthurt LMAO

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Too brave for my own good

When it comes to him, I get too brave for my own good. I take so many risks in getting so brutally hurt. So brutally hurt that you wouldn’t want to wake up facing the reality of it all. Staying up all night crying and crying. I know all the crap that I would be facing but I still take the risk. As much as I get the happiness and affection in the end, but I get more pain out of it. The funny...

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I'm don't want to lie to myself anymore

I just kept listening to other people and it made me think maybe that’s what I should be doing with the situation I am in with him. I really tried dealing with all this crap with what people were telling me to do. But it’s time to stop and realize I need to stop lying to myself and how I actually feel. Because no one knows my own feelings inside my heart other than myself. So...

Dec 30th

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14thofapril: Maybe we’ll get back together one day.Can you wait for me ? I really need a break for me and for both of us. We’ll get back onto the same road once more later on. I still love you.

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36877) I hate that everywhere I go, I'm mentally...

Dec 30th

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